for how long?? who the hell knows. who cares!!! the point is i'mhere again. and i wont lie, it took me like 3 minutes just to remember the stupid Bravenet name LOLOL!!! note to self:  gotta stop smoking the ganja. haha!!

anyway i hope all is well with you guys. that is, if any of my cool peeps are still around and posting??? .... i miss you guys. theres much to tell but little time to do it unfortunately. so i will leave it for another day perhaps.

sorry this is so short, but its sunday and i gotta hit the car wash place before it closes. and i also need to make dinner and lunch for another wondeful work week tomorrow. some things never change for the better eh? okay guys i love you all and i'll see you around sometime!!!

hello my blog whores....

damn things are getting crazy over here. blythe has been neutral since january about going out to the lezzie waterholes and meeting new women. ive stayed put, been in and out of emotional funks because i'm depressed about not having anyone special in my life. well goddamn can things get any stranger with me? who knows.....

a married chick with 2 kids has been on the prowl for me for about a week now, and i swear to you guys i didn't make the first move contrary to popular belief lol.. she's way cute and sweet but... she's married. what the hell. so that makes me a bit sad. and it pisses me off lol. then theres this other chick from eureka... waaaayyy up northern cali..... that's recently separated. thats 2 strikes. what the fuck is it with me attracting married chicks? ive done it once before and its not fucking pretty, dude. its alot of trouble and unecessary pain. and with my karma i'm always the one who ends up getting fucked, and not in a good way lolol!!!! married chicks...  please stay away from me. you will charm your way into my heart, do everything in your power to fuck with my mind and make me fall in love with you, and when things get pretty intense and too real for your confused asses, you will do everything in your power to push me away, break my heart and make me out to be the bad bitch. save me the drama, and co-payments to my therapy sessions for anti-depressants. you selfish douche bags.. FUCK YOU ALL!!!!

that felt great... who wants to join me at Bare Elegance for some boobie action??? first lap dance is on me!!!   sorry i dont have much to say tonight, being a lezzie is hard work and someone has to do it lol. i'm thinking about quitting the gay thing. its just not me anymore, no one loves me. 2006 is all about men!

who dress like women....

women are hot!

i miss women...... yep, i'm back on women.

i read that somewhere, i think over at my ex-blogger site.... that was the name of some chick's blog. pretty fucking cool if you ask me, wish i'd thought of it first, lol... anyway i think it's pretty fitting for me considering the shitty situation i'm in right now. no love interest and doing way too much for nothing at the old 9 to 5er joint. fuck 'em all!!!

anyway i got to meet america's favorite socialite.... MISS PARIS HILTON!!! hell yeah. i dont like the heffer much, but she does do some pretty dumb shit and, while under heavy medication and a few bong hits... she can be pretty fucking hilarious. i got an autographed picture and a hug. stood in line for about an hour. here's the funny part though.... i got the last autograph... afterwards her publicist or agent or whatever cut the lines off, and some lady got up on stage and said that she wasn't signing shit anymore because she was gonna miss her flight to Miami so all the people who were still in line were just gonna pass by where she was sitting and say hello, they weren't getting anything LOLOL!!!! i walked out of there so fast, bad knee and everything. we were in a very ghetto mall in california so chances of me getting jumped and mugged for my autograph were pretty high. oh well.

so mr. cleighten asked me a question: am i part-time lezzie? i must answer his question:

i'm a lezzie... a fucking hot one i might add, lolol... but i still find the opposite sex attractive and i wont hide that.  ill flirt and do the tease thing, and if he flirts back then fuck it, its all good. aint no shame in my game baby. but i won't fuck guys anymore. it's fun and all but sex with girls is way better. and when its time to get freaky we have the option of attaching the dick LMAO!! j.k

my knee is bothering me again. i dont wanna go to the doc though. last time i went to the doc and told him my knee was hurting he said i needed more surgery. i dont want that shit to happen again im sick of limping around and having to wear extra clothing during the winter time. i feel so old!! osteoarthritis on a 24 year old bitch aint cool dude. anyway i guess i'm outta here... bitch ass paris made me wait 2 hrs in line for a fucking autograph. FUCK YOU PARIS!! oh yeah i almost forgot to tell you guys....... there was this group of guys and girls just across from the perfume section that were yelling out: "we want to be in your porno, Paris!!" fucking hysterical. nite, guys!!

hey cleighten!!

since you seem to be the only one keeping up with my blog nowadays im gonna start off every entry with personal greetings to you lol....  i dont blame no one else bothering to coming in here anymore.... cuz I DONT EVEN COME HERE ANYMORE LOLOLOL!!!!!  hahaha, im such a bitch. i swear i dont ignore this shit on purpose im just really busy with work. apparently our genius of a general manager decides to lay off our accounting clerk and now all our freight bills and quotes for carriers are sitting there piled up to high heavens. and guess who he tried to get to help out?... yeah that's right, yours truly. i said well if i dont see a difference in my paycheck for this, then i cant and wont help you out. he said he wasn't sure about a raise right now, so i said i couldnt help. and besides i'm  a client rep. my responsibilities have no fucking relation to accounting. training for 2 weeks wont make me magically learn everything there is to know about billing. you need at least 3-4 years of experience and a degree for that shit you fucking waste of skin manager!! you should be stabbed in the eye with a really hot french fry, you dumb fuck.

anyway enough of that...... tomorrows the big game!! and the steelers are going back to pittsburgh with their hopes of a superbowl ring crushed all the way down to the pits of hell because THEYRE GONNA LOSE!! yeah that's right i said that shit. the seahawks are gonna come down hard on them. hmm, that sounded kinda homo-erotic. but yeah, seahawks all the way.

speaking of homos, there was this really cute guy at a burger joint the other week. i asked for a cheeseburger special and a chicken salad. both not for me of course.... i'm down 8 lbs. yey! anyway he gives me the bag of food and i start to walk away when he says, "wait miss!... you forgot your napkins and hot peppers..." he was so gorgeous, you guys.... so im tryin to be all cute and i start to giggle and toss my hair to the side lolol... yeah, so gay i know... and i open the bag, he puts the stuff in and i said thank you.. he smiles back, winks and says..."you're welcome, cutie... have a nice day".   yeah, Blythe's heart skipped a beat. and that never happens. i drive back to my friend's house and tell her what happened, and she begins to describe the guy. greenish eyes, tall, soft brown wavy hair..... ummm, he's gay, Blythe. i said what the hell, no he's not. she said she's seen him and some other guy walking out of the gym one night, and when they got to their car they started making out. what are the odds of that?

so it looks like its gonna be another lonely valentines year for me. im starting to lose the hope of finding that certain someone who's going to make me feel like i'm the only one they'll ever need. i remember that feeling too, it was so awesome i've never felt that alive before in my life. they say good things come to those who wait. but my patience has been a bit short the past 2 years. aside from my sometimes perverse humor and strong personality i'm really a nice person, and one hell of a devoted girlfriend if i do say so myself. oh well...... showtime after dark is pretty understanding. see ya later cleighten!!!

and to my other blog buddies out there. stacey, kai, mary (where the fuck are you girl?? havent posted since halloween!!!), and eveyrone else i havent mentioned..... i miss you kids so much... peace out....

okay okay, so the steelers kicked denver's ass... all i gotta say is... WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO THE BRONCOS!!???! i mean, i expected a really good game. hell, a close game.  but what i saw last sunday was just plain embarassing. they were doing so well. my friend, her boyfriend and i went to ESPN Zone in Anaheim to watch the game. i've never seen her so upset, she didn't smile once. i felt bad, but then again i did say i didnt want the broncos to win the super bowl because they beat Philadelphia in october. so that's cool. and my ex girlfriend is from pittsburgh so i dont want her stupid team to win the bowl. the seahawks humiliated the eagles 42-0 i think in november. i hate them. so its down to pitts and seattle. i dont mind seattle taking it. and to be honest, both teams really do deserve to be on top. they did well. but i dont care, its all about philadelphia. woohoo!!

ive been out and about doing absolutely everything and nothing at all. working, coming home and doing the domestic housewife thing, minus the wife part because i dont belong to anyone and noone belongs to me. will blythe find love this year? who knows. valentines day is coming up. im not looking forward to it, so my plan is to have a nice quiet evening with wacky tobacky and sleep it off. butch/dyke girl wanted to go to girlbar and hang out, they're having this singles night dance, but she's currently on this  fling with some chick who has the same first and middle name as my ex. what are the fucking odds of that? she will most likely call me up and ask me to go to girlbar with her and her girlfriend, and they'll be all lovey dovey and i'll be the loser watching them grope each other.... uuuhhh,, not happening. okay kids, sorry the entries have been short, but there hasnt been much happening. oh i started my diet again. 4 pounds shed so far!! but i'm dying for some pizza. seriously. i'm FUCKING DYING FOR FAT!! good night kiddies!!!

stressful sunday today.... the colts are out of the playoffs, in a major upset loss against the steelers. who knew!! i guess bettis still has some gas left in that bus after all, eh? i was really rooting for peyton and his crew, but oh well. dungy looked real sad. and the only reason i wanted pittsburgh to lose is because my ex likes the steelers. hopefully the broncos will kick their asses next week. oh whoever theyre playing next. then again i dont want the broncos to win either, because they spanked the eagles 3 months ago. so my wish is for the panthers to go all the way this year. they couldnt quite pull it off in 04, but they got a pretty good chance now. cleighten rocks because he masturbates. too much. and his forearm is huge. mine's almost there. hey, maybe we could arm wrestle!

happy weekend my little blog minions!!

its yet another saturday night and im chillin at home with a sore throat. our weather has been pretty shitty the past few days and that is what made my immune system weak. therefore i will stay up until midnite and watch the soft core porn on cinemax and showtime, probably rub one or two off and go to bed. sounds like a great plan!

so butch/dyke girl and i went out last friday night. i didn't want to but she sounded  pretty desperate because her latest fling was being a bitch to her and she called me drunk and begged me to come out to the lezzie clubs to chill. i made the mistake of telling her that i was at my suppliers house chillin, and she wanted some wacky tobacky. and that she'd pay me later. i bought a dime but charged butch/dyke girl 20 hahaahhaaaahahahaaa!!!! well it was funny for me, i had 10 extra bucks in my pocket, yey! anyway we met up and she was already wasted. as soon as i got to the club i didnt even get to walk in. we had to walk all the way back to my car, so she could spark it up. the dumb bitch told me she didn't eat anything the entire day but a twinkie and redbull. she didnt tell until after she was done smoking. so naturally i got pissed and told her she was stupid.

we walk into the club and she's acting all retarded, slurring her words and laughing at nothing. the hot bartender... (she is so goddamn fine) looks at her, then looks at me and im just like... she's so done, can you get her a sprite or something? i'll have a corona.... then i tried to convince butchy bitch to walk to the gas station so she could have a burger or hotdog or something. the alcohol and bud won't come down unless she ate something kinda solid. finally after 45 mins. of watching her stumble and almost eat shit we got her something to eat. i talked to a few cuties, she laughed and talked to herself... and called it a night. im never doing that again, she can fuck herself up on her own next time. she wanted to hook up again tonight but im feeling way under the weather.

work is going okay for now, but im hoping to get outta there sometime after doing my taxes in april.  although i really need the money now, i gotta hang on for a few more months. i dont wanna get all anxious and leave without having anything to fall back on yet. im half assing the bartending school thing, i lost all motivation to do it. one of my friends said why im planning to waste my intelligence on being a bartender.... "so you can get gawked at by a bunch of drunken fat bastard fuckers?!".... uhh, yeah. duhh! the drunker they are the more tips i get. and god blessed me with some tig-ol'-bitties, what more could i ask for? lolol.... im not planning to bartend for a living, its just something i want to do for some extra cash on the side, no big deal. oh well, we'll see what happens.... anyway thats my latest update, nothing new to report. im boring, my life's boring, and im not getting any funtime in bed. except with myself. which is getting boring as well. if i keep going at the rate im going ill have the strongest right forearm in california. LOLOL!!!   eww, thats nasty. see ya later children.....

haha, this dude on my tag board left me a link to this new lighter that will increase the high from the joint youre tokin on. hahaha, what a loser.... i've pre-ordered mine ...


anyway after countless hours of trying to get my blogger site back since the night of the great coputer crash, all desperate attempts have been ceased, and the new site is MIA forever. i am sad. i had some good shit in there, and its gone!! why do bad things always happen to me??! j/k . so i guess i'm back to bravenet until i get the urge to start a new blog somewhere else, which probably wont happen for a very long time. i'm not so driven right now.

whats been happening with you kids lately? i really miss reading your comments. so i hope to hear from you kids soon. went to girlbar last night and it was so goddamn dead. butch/dyke girl asked me to join her because she had a fall out with her latest fling. whats new! by the time i got there she was totally wasted and wanted to smoke weed. what a fucking loser. so i gave her some anyway hahaha. and she got so baked. she's never smoking my bud ever again. these model twin looking bitches walk in the bar and start dancing with the go go girls and are pretty much having sex with each other, pulling down their pants and taking their g-strings off slowly, when the bouncer had to come in and tell them to calm down, even though all parties were consenting. dude, it was getting so good, and they had to ruin the show by stopping.  the bartender is so cute too, but i wouldn't touch her with a 10 foot pole. she's been around the block a few times and i'm avoiding the clap and other nasty VDs at all costs.

thats about all thats been happening lately. oh and went to a gentlemans club the other week but didn't get a dance. all the strippers were ugly. is there such a thing as an ugly stripper you ask. HELL YES!!! night, kiddies!!!

goddamn im so pissed off!!!

you know i have another blog and posting entries there, right?? well blythe was typing away earlier this evening.  just minding her own business, when all of a sucking fudden....  the computer starts tripping and it just died on me. totally fried. i'm pretty sure i lost everything i had saved and wiped everything out. i drive over to this net cafe around the corner from my house to try and continue what i was doing.... and the stupid site says it cant find my blog.  WHAT THE FUCK!!!! i typed my email and log-in name about a thousand times and it is nowhere to be found, according to them.  i am so upset, and everything i had done and was on the verge of finishing has disappeared into the fiery puss-filled hole that is the internet. damn computers. damn them all to hell!!!


but i've missed you guys. whats up???

okay, for real this time....

i'm gonna render this blog inactive, i'd say maybe in the next week or so. i decided to take my business (well, mainly pointless rants and gossip about GirlBar and other boring shit) to... BLOGGERRRR!!!

yes ladies and gents, ill be posting on BLOGGER from now on. its something new, and seems to work so much better than bravenet. took a gander the other day and i like what i saw. so i set up an account and im still tinkering around with the formats and shit. but it will look cool once i get the hang of it.

so.... as soon as im done ill come back and hook my fellow faithful minions (thats you all... )  with the link to my new home. id really love for you guys to come visit once in a while.

nothing new to report. i went to palmies, a lezzie water hole in "weho".... eeww i cant believe i just sufficed west hollywood with weho. i should shoot my tits off for that one... it was okay. but pretty disappointed in myself. for starters.... i got there too early, and got buzzed off of 2 beers. TWO!!! then thats when all the hotties started crashin the joint. this one... fairly "mature woman" sat next to me and smiled at me every time we happened to lock eyes. she was probably in her late 30's early 40's. but she looked really good. nice body, hazel eyes, and a very beautiful smile. and what did blythe do? nothing. why? because i was fucking buzzed. i didnt say anything to her. not even a hello or an introduction. but i think it was for the best. because as buzzed as i was, i probably would have made a complete jackass out of myself and maybe let something horrible slip out my mouth... like damn you look so fuckable. or.. do you have some mexican/asian in you?  no?? would you like to? something cheezy and worthy of a good assbeating. ill try again this saturday.

thats about it. oh yeah i left work early today. had a therapy session but it got cancelled. the therapist had some emergency with his family and had to jet. works out just fine, i didnt feel like being at work today, and sure as hell didnt feel like spending 10 minutes on the steppy thing. i hate sweating! anyway, im out the door. maybe by the time i come back again ill have the link to the new place. thanks for being such faithul readers. hope to catch y'all again soon..... peace out....!!!